







If you're a teacher, then you understand each "new year" really starts when the fall semester begins. January 1st is just a formality for me. And even though I am not teaching 3rd graders this year, I still consider this the start of a new year. This past school year Chad and I struggled with the decision of whether or not I should stay at home or return to teaching. For many women, the decision is clear cut for one reason or another. But for me (or us) it was extremely difficult and carefully thought out. Did I want to spend more time with my child? Of course. Every working Mom does. Did I love teaching? With a passion. Would we be financially able to live without my paycheck? Kind of.
I find it extremely interesting that so much is expected of women these days. We're supposed to be successful professionals, highly educated intellectuals, supportive wives, hostesses to any number of parties or showers, organized housekeepers, dedicated exercise enthusiasts, devoted friends and chefs. This is of course in addition to being a full-time Mom. We're also supposed to have a secret talent for anything artsy or craft-related. I keep hoping to discover that talent very soon but I think God has other plans for me. Oh, and did I mention that we are also expected to look like Heidi Klum? Obviously if you take good care of yourself you will have a perfectly sculpted body and flawless skin. Pleeeeeeeease. No.one.can.do.it.all. Goodness gracious! I hope that any woman reading this blog who puts too much pressure on themselves will think back to the day your mom/dad/teacher/friend said to you, "Just do your best. Everyone is different." I plan on teaching that lesson to Ella over and over and over. I want her to be a loving, educated, ambitious, multi-faceted woman, but I mainly just want her to lead the life God intended for her. I will push her, but I don't have any interest in producing an unfulfilled superchild. Thank goodness my parents felt the same way.
Everyone has to decide what is best for their family. Last year, that was me continuing to work outside the home. This year, it is for me to stay home and take care of Ella and Ethan. A couple years from now? Who knows. God led us down an interesting path last year. I did not appreciate some of the obstacles at the time, but I know I am better for them now. I have a deeper appreciation for parents (both working and stay-at-home) than I ever have before. I understand that marriage is hard work sometimes but man, it is so worth it. :) I know that asking for help is more of a sign of wisdom and strength than weakness. I realize that my life is full of love and I thank God every day for the people he has placed in my life.
I had the privilege of teaching 23 amazing third graders this past year and working with a fantastic group of friends and coworkers. My kids soared and I'm so lucky to have been a part of that. I was blessed enough to leave a job knowing that I look forward to going back one day. Not many people can say that. I will miss giggling with a classroom full of 8-year-olds. I will miss the way kids think science experiments are the coolest thing on earth. I will miss the handwritten notes and drawings. I will miss turning off the lights and turning on just the lamp to set the mood for a good book. I will miss the teary eyes when I tell parents how much progress their child has made in reading. I will miss the hugs and corny elementary school jokes. I will miss sharing hysterical stories with some of my closest friends on a daily basis. I will miss changing a kid's mind from math being terrifying to being their favorite subject. I will miss having way too many different colors of markers and eating PTA brownies. I will miss the comradery of working with a team of people who truly believe they are doing one of the most important and difficult jobs on earth.
There are so many things I will cherish about this upcoming year. I know I won't stay home forever, so I plan on enjoying the time while I have it. I look forward to talking to Ella while she eats breakfast each morning. I look forward to being there every time she learns a new word. I look forward to sleeping more than 5 1/2 hours each night. I look forward to relaxing with Chad on the couch after Ella goes to bed without grading papers or falling asleep. I look forward to Sundays still feeling like part of the weekend. I look forward to Ethan and Ella forming a close friendship. I am excited about my house being presentable every once in a while although I do not looking forward to the cleaning. Hah! I look forward to grocery shopping on a week day morning. I look forward to having more time to dedicate to involvement at church. I look forward to doing artsy things with Ethan and Ella or exploring the outdoors. I look forward to being able to hug Ella whenever I feel like it. I look forward to Ella crawling in my lap in the middle of the day with a book in hand. I'm looking forward to possibly having time at night or on the weekends to cultivate something I enjoy into a talent.
Will I still be crazy busy? Any one who has taken care of 2 babies or toddlers knows the answer to that. But I am excited about this change. And I'm excited about getting back into teaching when the time is right.
We finally had Ella's 1 year check up with her pediatrician right after she turned 13 months. She is 31 inches tall (90%), weighs 22 pounds 9 ounces (75%), and has a head circumference of 19 inches (97%).
At 14 months Ella:
We love this girl. God sure created a child way more amazing than I could have ever imagined. She is so full of love, laughter, and life.
Have you ever wondered what a frozen banana covered in chocolate tastes like? Well, then you should visit Bananarchy in Austin. It's this tiny banana stand and their treats are quite scrumptious. You can choose between many different dips and toppings. Since the main ingredient is a fruit, it's healthy, right? Plus Chad and I thoroughly enjoyed the Arrested Development jokes on their menu. Their logo is very Austiny.


